pandang ke langit..seolah2 seperti melihat kamu..

Sorry, I never told you, all I wanted to say.
Now it's too late to hold you. '
Cause you've flown away, so far away.
 Never, had I imagined,

 living without your smile.
Feelin' and knowing you hear me.
It keeps me alive.
 And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.....

 I never showed you.
Assumed you'd always be there.
I took your presence for granted.
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared.
 Although, the sun will never shine the same, I'll
always look to a brighter day.
ALLAH, I know, when I lay me down to sleep,
You'll always listen, as I pray!
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pandang ke langit....

tgk,lihat n perhatikan..kosong je...

tibe2..hati nie terusik lg..

setelah sekian lame.....xmerasakn perasaan nie..

seperti lihat kamu diatas sane...

bahagia or derita kah disana????????

then tibe2 dgr lgu nie kt lappy..

Another day has gone, I'm still all alone

How could this be you're not here with me

You never said goodbye, someone tell me why

Did you have to go and leave my world so cold?

Everyday I sit and ask myself

How did love slip away

Something whispers in my ear and says

That you are not alone, for I am here with you

Though you're far away, I am here to stay

But you are not alone, for I am here with you

Though we're far apart, you're always in my heart

But you are not alone

Just the other night, I thought I heard you cry

Asking me to come and hold you in my arms

I can hear your prayers, your burdens I will bear

But first I need your hand then forever can begin

Oh whisper three words and I'll come runnin'

And I, and girl you know that I'll be there, I'll be there

You are not alone, for I am here with you

Though you're far away, I am here to stay

You are not alone, for I am here with you

Though we're far apart, you're always in my heart...

kte seolah2 sedang bercommunicate..thru dis song..

tp..kite berada didunia yg berbeza...

dengar..n hayati...

yupe..u always be here wif me..

even i cannot see u...

but i know u r here..looking at me..

hope..u can see me smilling..

i still keep on smilling..even myheart still hurt so much..

if u ask me..am i happy now..??

i will answer..

yesterday,today,tomorow n forever..i will living happily..

knowing dat we are not apart anymore..rite?

(^~^)...

alangkah indahnya.....

alankah indahnya..
klu skang nie ade kt RUMAH dah..
mesti skang nie ngah
dok mkn goreng pisang sambil gossip2 ngn ibu..
xpon..bwk isha g maen kt playground..
xpon..dok dpn tv mengadap cter indon..
xpon..lepak2 ngn member2 skola lme
xpon..masih kt mall masih pkir2 perlu ke blik umah skang?hehe
xpon..still tdo..
huhuhuhu..
bahagianye klu dh blik..
tp skang..ape yg aku wat..
bukak buku...smbil memandang jaoh ke luar tingkap...
kira..kira hari untuk blik..
dh 6bulan xblik..
agk2 nye klcc 2 dh tmbh 1 tngkt x?haha
saya nk blik!!!!mau!!!mau!!!mau!!!
xmau ambik exam boleh x????????????????
xboleh???fine.........huhuhu<bertindak mengikut arahan...>

sukar difahami...

sad..sad..sad..sad..tonite..
no..n..no..no..nobody knows..nam molla..
huhuhu..
ssh la nk ckp ngan manusia nie..
kte ckp A..die phm B..
kte ckp B..die ckp psl A plak..
hmm...xkn la nk kne terang..1 demi 1..
kupas 1 demi 1..mcm kupas bawang..
we r talking in the same language kn?
n we r now living at the same place..which is BUMI..MALAYSIA..
IS IT????????????
so..apela..apela mslh kte nie??hmmmm....
kte nie ibarat...
plat2..kt bwh kerak bumi nie yg keep on moving..
but nobody notice dat it is moving..n it keep move away from each other..
but when the time has come..it wil explode!!!
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adila..pendam je..
tp..adila nie manusia biase..
i got my threshold level gk..
when the tyme has come..i also will explode..
adila xske ckp mnde twice..die xske mrh2 byk kali..xske ckp xske..xnk or jgnla wat cm2..byk2 kali
sbb adila pon nk jge hati org..
tp hati adila spe nk jge..????
jge sndri la kn..haa..mmg sgt kesian...
adila XMINTA utk difahami sepenuhnya tp MENGHARAPKAN utk difahami..

*외톨이야 /I'm a Loner/Alone*

oetoriya oetoriya
oetoriya oetoriya)
bwabwa nareul bwabwa ttokbaro nae du nuneul bwa
geobwa imi neoneun ddan goseul bogo isseo
check it one two three sigyebaneulman chyeoda boneun gae
mal an haedo dareun saram saenggingeol ara

(Rap)
yojeum neon na anin dareun saramgwa mannami jatdeora
ijeneun meonjeo jeonhwado geolji andeora
narang isseul ttaeneun haruga 1chorado neon nae apeseo yojeum haneulman bodeora
Oh~ I know your mind imi neowa naui geori
meoreojin geurigo beoreojin namboda motan uri sai

# oh baby oetoriya oetoriya ddaribiriddaradu~ oetoriya oetoriya ddaribiriddaradu~
oetoriya oetoriya sarange seulpeohago sarange nunmuljitneun oetori
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight gaseumi apa
Oh no no no no no body knows mam molla
one two three four five six seven night su manheun bameul seumyeo nareul dallaego isseo

(Rap)
charari dareun saram saenggyeotdago naega sirheumyeon sirtago
charari soljikhage malhaejwotdamyeon nan neoreul jukdorok miwohajin anhasseul tende
check it one two three ne mareul doesaegyeo bwado irijeori dulleodaeneun geojitmariya

# Repeat
sarangi gane sarangi ddeonane
(han sarameul geurigo han sarangeul naegeneun iksukhaetdeon modeun geotdeureul)
i bami gamyeon neol jiwoyagetji
(geurae na eokjirorado neoreul jiwoyagetji nal beorin neol saenggakhamyeon geuraeyagetji)
(Gone Gone my love is gone)
oetoriya oetoriya daridiridara du~ oetoriya oetoriya ddaribiriddaradu~
oetoriya oetoriya sarange apahago sarangeul gidarineun oetori
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight kkum igil wonhae
Oh no no no no no body knows nal molla
one two three four five six seven night su manheun bameul seumyeo nunmul heulligo isseo


TRANSLATIONS
(I'm a loner. I'm a loner.
I'm a loner. I'm a loner.)

Look, look at me, me. Look at me straight in the eyes.
Look, you are already look at elsewhere.
Check it one two three, you only keep looking at the clock.
You don't have to tell me. I know you got someone else.


(Rap)
You've been meeting someone else often lately.
You don't even call me first anymore.
When you are with me, you would only look at the sky even if a day is a second long.
Oh~ I know your mind. The distance between you and I.
Getting farther and wider. We are no better than strangers.


# oh baby I'm a loner, I'm a loner. daridiridara du~ I'm a loner. I'm a loner. daridiridara du~
I'm a loner, I'm a loner. I'm a loner being sad at love, shedding tear at love. sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight. My hurt hurts.
Oh no no no no no body knows, how I feel.
one two three four five six seven night, I'm cheering up myself passing many nights awake.

(Rap) If you had just told me honestly
that you got someone else. That you hate me.
Then I wouldn't have hated you to death.
check it one two three. Remembering your words, they are all silly lies.

# Repeat

Love is going. Love is leaving.
(One person and one love. Everything that I've been used to)
I should erase you after tonight.
(Yes, I should force myself to erase you. I should do so since you abandoned me)
(Gone Gone my love is gone)


I'm a loner, I'm a loner. daridiridara du~ I'm a loner, I'm a loner. daridiridara du~
I'm a loner, I'm a loner. I'm a loner hurt by love and waiting for love.
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight, I want this to be a dream.
Oh no no no no no body knows, no body knows me.
one two three four five six seven night, I'm crying passing many nights awake.

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just love dis song currently..
yonghwa oppa..sarangahayeo~..^-^

oucchh..its bleeding..

yupe..its hurt me babe..
more..more n more i bleed..
deep inside..
how cn i tell u dat it is hurt..
n how can i act..
so dat u know it hurting me..
n getting deeper..
i never told u dat i am in pain..
yeah..dat is myproblem.
i never say it..n u never know..
but..
is it difficult to know huh??????????????please la..
xkn sume nk kne bgtaw..
u said.."no.."
but it is!!..clearly seen..it is..
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luv u~..

i said.."luv u..."
replied.."luv u.."
wuahaaaaa..hepy gler dgr..^-^
hehehe..
sbb perkataan tue keluar dr mulut..
ADRIANA DELISHA empunya diri..
omoo..besar sudah ank buah kesygn ku nie..

dh pndi berkate2..n sgt bijak..
bru 2thun...she able to count up to 10..even ade la tunggang terbaliknye..
n kelakar nye die pggl org pon tunggang terbalik..
atok die pggl akok..
mak ngah die pggl ngah ma..
but she can called me makcu!!~~..<aigoo2..^-^>

isha ngah bce buku..gler rjin kn?hehe

1st word yg kluar dr mulut isha is "abah.."
so mybrother tersgt la proud ble ank die mcm obsess je ngn die dok sbut abh je..<tlg la prasaan kot..>
isha pndi nyanyi lgu barney..
"i luv u..u luv me...~~"
n lgu dangdut "asyik.."
gler la..spe ntah ajr bdk kcik nie nyanyi..siap goyang2 bdn ag tue..
n..last tyme when i was in kl..
i taught her to dance "sorry2 dance" from suju..
pergghhh..start je lgu tue isha trus menari.
pndi gler la bdk nie...
xsbr nk jmpe die..n tersgt la rindu kt die...
n skang..hobby bru isha adela amek gmbr..
pegang jela camera..n soh die posing..mmg cair la die..hehe

isha mse mule2 lahir..

isha mse umur 1thun..

n now.....

haaa..selaen isha..
aku pon tersgt la rindu nk jmpe org bru dlm family ku nie..
AYRA SURFYNA empunya diri..
4bulan sudah die..
tp xpnh jmpe die..sedih je..
tp sume org ckp die sgt2 bambam..
msti comey jgk...ee..xsbr nk blik..

rara mse kt  ICU lepas lahir..

rara mse umur 3bulan..

n..i really looking forward dgn kehadiran org bru lg dlm family ku..
isha nk dpt adik!!!!..
cemerlang la mybro..hahahaha
nnt rmai la knk2 belarian dirumah ku.
omooo..bestnye suasana nie..heeee~~..

adriana delisha n ayra surfyna

pagi2 lagi...

hehe..
pagi2..seawal 6.45pg
dh senyum..n gelak ketawa..
sbb ape senyum?
sbb ape ketawa?
sbb sy suka!!!~~..hahaha
kn best klu ari2 mcm nie..
hmmm~....
if u ask me am i hepy?yes i do...
p/s:sy ske chipsmore yg xbyk chips!!ske yg ade 1chip je..=p

i did it!!!! -030211

bile pkir2..rse mcm xpercye pon ade..
dgn susah dan payahnye..
aku dpt..dpt..dpt..naek
n sampai ke puncak gunung kinabalu..
PUNCAK GUNUNG KINABALU..aka..low peak
penat..
ibarat seperti berjalan di jalan yg tiade penghujung nye..
jalan dan trun berjalan..
sekejap menurun..pastu menaik..
pnjat batu2..tgge..jalan dlm utan..

mula2..rmai....
pastu semakin lme semakin kurang..
ade yg terlebih laju..
ade yg terlambat ckit..
dipertengahan jalan..hujan pulaktue..
menggigil kesejukan..
tp perjalanan harus diteruskan..
seramai 21org yg menyertai ekspedisi mendaki gunung kinabalu nie..

kami start our journey from mesilau gate..
jrak tmpt nie ke laban rata adalah 8km..
n lebih jaoh dr gate timpohon sebyk 2km..
even perjalanan sgt jaoh..
tp pemandagn tersgtla cntik..
sgt kagum dgn ciptaan illahi..
ade pelbgai flora n fauna yg sgt cntik...
subhanallah..^-^
start journey at 11am...our guide ckp we must atleast 1km per hour..
n shud reach laban rata b4 9pm..
n alhamdulillah..
i reach laban rata at 7pm..mase 2 dh gelap dh..
dh penat sgt..n xlarat dh nk jln..bygkan la berjalan selama 8jam
n berhenti hnye dlm 5minit kt certain pit stop..then sambung jln lg..
penat tuhan je yg taw..kaki sume dh sakit..
tp memikirkan..dh jaoh aku berjalan xkn nk give up..so teruskan jgk..
ble smpi 2..perghhh..sjuk bai..
suhu kt laban rata 9celcius...sjuk gler..
laban rata nie tmpt kami bermalam..

kt sini ade hotel..emm..hotel la jgk kirenye nie...
ade la semua kelengkapan..tmpt tdo n sume2..
mknan buffet pon disediakan n sedap la gk..hehe
then..after tdo..dlm pkul 3pg..
kami truskan perjalanan utk naek kepuncak..
haa..pnjt lg..
nk nageh dh mse nie..sbb btol2 xlrt..
mse tue dh pkir..ape aku buat nie..npe la aku seksa diri mcm nie..
mcm2 la pkir mse jln nie..
tp ble pkir psl ibu,ayh n harapan kwn2..truskan jgk jln..
pastu smpi kt certain area kne start naek gne tali..
pergghh..takot gler..jln die curam sgt..
klu terlepas tali..hmm..xtaw la jd ape..
tp naeb ade p.cik guide..die yg pimpin aku naek..
thanx p.cik..!!

then smpi ke kwasan batu2 rata..
mmg la rata tp kne mendaki..means jalan menaik..
n sgt n teramat penat..
bile makin tggi kte naek..oxygen semakin nipis..
so i feel like gasping  4 air..
mcm hypoxia pon ade..
pastu tibe2 angin sgt la kuat...
mse tu jln pon mcm tertolak ketepi..kuat sgt angin..
air idung keep on meleleh..kulit jd sgt kering..bibir pon dry sgt..
perghhh..mmg suffer jgk..dh la gelap..
jalan pon terhuyu-hayang..
tp dr jaoh dh nmpk dh punck2 gunung..dh mula tersenyum..
jln..jln n trus jln..
ahirnya smpi gk kt bwh low peak tue..
actually..at dat tyme i think i had reach mylimit..
i realy feel tired..n like dying...
i just wanna to giving up..
coz so damn tired..n really cannot go on anymore..

but then myfren said.."u had walk this far..then u just wanna giving up now?a few steps ag..."
dgr je mnde tue..aku pon kuat kn smangt....
pnjt..pnj..n pnjt..akhirnya..
syukur alhamdulillah..i DID it..
i had reach at low peak of mt kinabalu..!!!!

tepat 7am..mt kinabalu telah ku tawan..hehe
perasaan?nk nangeh pon ade..terharu sgt..
mcm xpercye..aku berdri diats gunung tertiggi di asia tenggara...
cntik sgt...rse mcm awan tue dkt je..
tp sjuk nye yg amt la kt ats tue..
-1 celcius beb..mengigil2..dh pkai swether tebal pon trketar2 ag kesejukan..

thn ble nk trun 1 hal pulak..
mse naek tue tgh gelap..xnmpk keliling..
ble nk trun..masyaallah...
tgginye..curam kot..jln yg gne tali td tue..gler curam..
mse tue lutut menggigil nk trun..sbb nmpkkot kt bwh..
mule la pkir klu la terlepas tali tue ape jd kt aku?smpt ke msuk ospitl..
haa..mcm2 ar pkir..
mse tue dh mule la rse aku wat keje gler..hahaha
tp tabahkn hati..kuatkn smngt..
trun je..pegang tali tu kuat2..n buat2 xnmpk bwh..huhu..
akhirnya smpi di laban rata semula..packing brg n check out..
then..start journey trun bwh balik at 11am..
i safely arrived kt kinabalu park at 3.30..
mse tue muscle sume dh tear..lutut dh longgar..
jln pon dh mcm org ape..hehe..
tp yg penting aku puas ati teramat sgt..
penat tp pengalaman nie xkn dpt dibeli dimane2..
alamdulillah..dengan izin ALLAH...
aku dpt selamat pergi dan balik..
pasni sijil yg dapat mendaki nie nk frame..nk tunjuk kt ank,cucu,cicit sume..hahahaha..
conclusion..
dlm nk buat sesutu..kte kne ade determination yg kuat..
if we really wanna do it..we will achieve it as long as we had strong determination!!..