sick again....

dun be sick again adila...
back then..u used to say dat to me..
but..how cn i help myself..
i keep on fallin sick..
without realizing dat..
i become sick for more..more..n more often..when u r not around
n without realizing dat..
i will searching for u..
here..there..everywhere..but u r nowhere..
u cannot be here..
to comfy me..
y i keep looking for u..
maybe bcoz..im getting used of it..
whenever im getting sick..u will be here..n make me feel better..
but now..who cn i rely on..
pity me..
i so pity to myself..
how cn i tell to myself to stop for searching u..
yeah..michyeoso adila..
chinca michyeoso..

end story of little surgeon~..

hehehe..

little surgeon keww?

mm..i never thought to be a surgeon sumday..

maybe bcoz i not really put myheart towards this field..

or maybe myhands not destiny to become a surgeon..

yela..nk pegang gunting pon xreti..hahaaha

tp..sape taw kn..ALLAH yg menentukan..

papepon..

best tp stress~..

best words to describe myjourney thru dis posting..huhu

best..

best ble msuk ward surgical yg besar n lapang gler 2..

compared to medical ward..surgical ward was much2 more better 4 patient..

more space,more comfy n more coordinate la..

n all the doctors also very3 sporting n gegile..

they really2 give their hands to help us..

especially lend us thier cop..hahaha..

so gne la sesuka ati cop log book..hehe

best jgk when get chances to enter the operation theater..

mse 1st tyme tue nervous gk..

xpnh2 msuk OT n tgk mcmne org kne operate..tkot gk klu nk tgk drh byk2 nie..

tp xdela seram seperti dlm yg dijangka kn..

1st tyme msuk OT dh dpt peluang assist doctor buat operation..

at dat tyme i assist doctor jeremiah to do operation for the hernia repair..

best gler ble dpt pkai OT gaun n able to learn how to srub..

rse cm surgeon jap..hehe

even xde la tolong ape sgt tp experience scrub together wif doctor jeremiah xkn dilupakn..<cewaahh>..

stresss!!!

stress sgt2 ble begin our journey in surgical posting dgn kene marah..

emm..maybe our fault..yes i do agree dats our fault..

but sumtimes..there is a proper way to express the anger

kami nie bdk bru blaja..klu salah tlg la tgur ye..tp tgur la dgn berhemah..hmm..

stress sesgt lg ble kne anta 70 short case n 35long case..

what???????????

bpk argghh byk..pnt tgn nk kne tulih..

dh ar kne anta every week 10short case n 5 long case..

ye..tgn nie dh mcm mesin..keje menulis report je..

pastu study nye jarang2..huhu..

ble bst blurr2..hmm..stresssssssss...

stress lg ble xtaw ape yg aku dh blaja..

emm..blurr all the tyme..

emm..mule2 tue rse cm nk nangeh je..

try..try to make me fallin wif surgical field nie..tp ssh btol otak n hati nie nk trima..

tp lme2 ok sudah bah..

org kate..xknl maka xcinta..cewwahhh..haha

papepon...

skang jd sedih plak nk tgglkn surgical ward tue..

but..im really looking forward for next posting..

obstetrics n gynaecology!!!

here i come big mama..

xsabar nk jerit "ajan mama...!!!"..hehehe

pastu nk tgk baby yg cumel2..alololo..

wif mygroup member..we LOVE bst!!!..hehe

dak2 surgery yg gile sakai..haha

raYAku diPEranTaUan

duhai bonda..duhai ayahanda..

dengarla rayuan anakanda..

huuuuu..sedey la lagu nie..

mo nangeh dgr..

sayu je....

for the 1st tyme..

beraya jaoh dr ibu..ayh..n sume2..

bergenang gk air mate bile tkbir rmai2 pg rye td..

papepon..emm..ble dh ade 1st..

mungkin akn ade 2nd n 3rd nnt..

adoiii..tlg la..mau cuti la ble rye nie..

msti umah sunyi klu xde aku..hehehe

tp...

pengalaman beraye kt cni pon best gk..

ngn kwn2 sume..

msk2 rmai...

haa..utk rye kali nie chef kami rosnani telah decide utk membuat lontong..

so dgn berkat kerjasama sume rakan2..

maka jadila..

kuah lodeh,nasi impit n sambal tumis ikan blis sebagai juadah kami dipagi rye..

perghh..mmg menantu pilihan mak btol..

thumbs up for nani!!!

nani anda leh kawen dh ye..sy setuju sgt la weiiii~..hehehe

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cte klaka dipg rye..

mlm b4 rye..mcm iye2 ckp sume nk g smayang rye..

nk g kunun kul 7pg

tibe2 smpi sok pg bgun lewat la sume2..

klam kabut la siap2..

then grk la g msjid dlm kul 7.30..

tibe2 on the way 2..dh nmpk org pkai bju melayu mcm blik sudah..

balik sudah??abis sudah ke???

aku pon ape ag speed ag la bwk kete 2..

smpi dpn msjid..dgr org dh bce doa..

hahahahahahaahhahaahahahaha..

dh abeh smayang dh..

nk msuk msjid malu..so kteorg pon amin doa dlm kete je..

pastu cpt2 cabut blik..malu org tgk nnt..hehehe

xpelah..jemaah jelah ngn housemate sume kt umah..

ok jgk pe..

heheheehehe

after solat rye..

mkn n pic tyme!!!

posing beriye2 masing2..

padahal org tggu kteorg kt kg gum2..hehe

haa..rye pada arini kami tleah mendpt jemputn khas dr k.ina utk rye kt umah die..

umah die kt kg gum-gum..

besh gler dpt kumpul rmai2 ngn kwn2 sume..

dh la mknan byk xhengat!!

ade coto makasar..ade burasak..

ade 4 jenis lauk aym..aym msk merah,aym msk lengkuas,aym msk kari n aym goreng..

mak aiii..mmg tersandaq ar msing2 mkn kn..

thanx a lot kt family k.ina..

even masing2 family jaoh..tp terubt rindu tgk family k.ina..

then..acara mkn smbung lg ye..

petang g lak beraye umah kak ila n the geng..

haa..diorg nie lak msk soto,spagetti n bergedil..

pergghhh..mkn ag..

mkn..

mkn..

mkn..

dan mkn je kje nye..

ble nk diet?????????

hahaahaha..

papepon..sakan la raye di sandakan nie..^-^

ye SAYA STRESS!!

aahhh..STRESSSSSS!!!
haa..klu la diberi peluang..nk je gi kt balkoni umah nie..
jrit kuat2..stress la..!!!!!
blajar..blaja..n blaja..
pastu tdo..bgn je lupe dh ape aku blaja td..
hahaha..
mcm ade fistula je kt kepala nie..
masuk2..then kuar blik..
emm..nk cpt2 abeh exam nie..
nk rlax pale otak..nk blik kk..
nk njoy2..nk g jln..nk g shopping..
nie skang dok je terperuk dlm umah..
kuar je ble mkn..
pastu dok blik kt meja study..
huuu..stress btol klu ari2 idup cmnie..
ag stress ble dgr alang dh abeh master!!!
aa..stress glerr..aku nie xabeh2 blaja ag..
angah pon sdap2 show off ckp die cuti ckit nye lme dh smpi thun dpn.
tup2 dpt master je die thun dpn..
bpk arghh..sume org dh dpt master..!
aku nie..merangkak2 ag nk dpt degree..
bah..stress2!!
pape pon..
hepy rse ble dgr suara ibu...
yg sentiase bg semangat..
"adik..blaja rajin2,chaiyok2!!!"..
hahaha..klakar dgr ibu ckp cm2..
ntah blaja dr spe ntah ckp chaiyok 2..
sempoi la ibu..~~..hehehe
nway..xkesah la..
stress pon..stress la..
kene la redah gak en..
xkn nk lari jaoh2 kot..
tp adila xleh slalu stress..
nnt dpt stress ulcer bru taw..
utk kurang kn stress..
mari ketawa..
hahahaahahahahahahaahahahahahaha..
hahahaahahahahaahahahahahahahaah..
hahahahaahahahahahahahaahahahaha..
hahahaahhhhhahahaahahahahahahaha..
ok dh pnt...!!hehe

mynew love one..

finally..i found u..

my new love one..

hope..u will last longer a bit then mypast one

for mypast..

i have to say sorry..

i doesnt mean want to betray u..

but..myheart was really2 fragile..

i really..really cnnot stop myself..

to fallin in love wif them..

because..

they are really9999..

HANDSOME!!!...aaahh..otukee~..

omoo..miaannae..

miannae..dbsk oppa..

miannae super junior oppa..

i do love u all like michyeoso..

but..suddenly..i found them..hehe

but oppa sume

kopchong ma..

..mylove for all of u..

will never eradicate from myheart..

yupe..u all will remain in myheart..

i will still be ur

kipas susah mati<die hard fan>..hehe

my new love one..

SS501!!!saranghaeee~~..

chakamanyeo..!!

but my love for choi siwon still unggul ye..

xprnh ade gantinyew..hehe

myone n only..choi siwon~~

p/s:xphm gk npe tulih psl diorg..hehe

njoy dgr lgu2 diorg musim2 stdy week nie..

nway..gd luck to all myfren in ur end posting exam..

aja2 hwaiting!!pogihajima~~..

choc cake n bufday nani..

tibe2..
terigt choc cake made during secondary school dgn geng2 AMBT..
so..dengn rse xsbar..
aku pon mengajak housemate2 ku pergi ke giant membeli brg2 keperluan..
as usual..klu xtpon ibu tnye xsah...
berkali2 tpn ibu nk cnfirm kn brg..
yela..brg2 kt semenanjung xdpt kt sni..so msti la doubt ckit nk cr brg2 gntian..
then..pulang ke rumah..
mula la operasi kami membuat kek..
ngah buat2..tibe2 teringt..
bufday nani is just around the corner..
bah..ape lagi..plan wat utk bufday die skali la..
then..mula2 nk wat muffin jew..
dh ciap letak acuan choc dlm cup cake..
then tibe2 bekas nk bake 2 cair..
amoo..aigoo2..cmne nie..
then..ngan mke xmalu nye..
g la minx pinjam makcik jiran sebelah rumah..
loyang nk bake cake..
haa..amek ko..
skali makcik bg loyang bentuk love u~..
tima kasih makcik..ats sumbangn anda..hehe
then..setelah bertungkus lumus..
ngan bantuan ema n rose..
jadila choc cake hearty shape..

sweet~..rse die pon sweet..hehe
acuan dlm cup cake tue pon masih dibakar gk..
lg cntik rupe die..

then..bile ptg ckit..
mule la plan utk bufday nani..
nani nie pengemar kfc..
tiap2 mggu msti nk mkn kfc..
so untuk tidak menghampakn rumate ku ini..
so ema n rose pon pegi la senyap2 bli..

then..norm ditugaskn utk melayan nani dlm blik jgn bg die kluar blik..
kteorg yg laen kt dlm umah nie..
klam kabut nk prepare..
ciap pasang projector..kunun2 nk pasang video utk nani la..
ngah prepare nie..tibe2 nani kuar blik..
dh la mse tue xsiap ag preparation..
hahaha..kantoi!!!
sume slh norm..hahaha
ape ag halau nani masuk blik balik..
n suh die wat2 xnmpk la kteorg ngah watpe..hahaha
cm klaka jew..
nway..best sgt..
dpt kumpul sume housemate..celebrate bufday nani..
yela..menjelang nk exam nie..
sume org busy ngn life msing2..
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to nani..

hepy bufday mydear..

3tahun idup bersama..

n hope dpt la still bersama smpi kte year 5..

maybe..aku ade wat slh kt ko..tnpe aku sdar..

n ko pon xpnh nk ckp..yg ko mrh kt aku..

ko nie pndm je dlm ati kn..

ur spirit to study..always inspire me..

maybe i never say this to u..

tp...ble tgk ko stdy..aku pon nk study gk..hehe

thanx menjadikn aku serajin ko..hahaha

nway..may ur dream come true..

jdila doctor yg baik..n cemerlang,gemilang n terbilang..<hehe>

jdila ank yg baek n patuh ngn kate2 n amant cik sabdin tue..

n pling pnting..be urself..let world know..who u r..

jgn nk wat drama eh..hahaha

n i wish..ALLAH oways bless u mydear

hepy bufday rosnani zakiah sabdin~..

      

SHE is mylife

You taught me everything

Everything you've given me

I'll always keep it inside

You're the driving force in my life

There isn't anything

Or anyone that I could be

And it just wouldn't feel right

If I didn't have you by my side

You were there for me to love and care for me

When skies were grey

Whenever I was down

You were always there to comfort me

And no one else can be

What you have been to me you will always be

You will always be the girl

In my life for all times

ibu 

you know I love you

ibu 

you're the queen of my heart

Your love is like tears from the stars

ibu 

I just want you to know lovin' you is like food to my soul

Yes it is..

You're always there for me

Have always been around for me even when I was bad

You showed me right from my wrong

Yes you did

And you took up for me

When everyone was downin' me

You always did understand

You gave me strength to go on

There was so many times

Looking back when I was so afraid

And then you come to me and say to me

I can face anything

And no one else can do

What you have done for me

You'll always be, you will always be

The girl in my life..

Never gonna go a day without you

Fills me up just thinkin' about you

I'll never go a day

Without my ibu

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i wish..

i can make her happy..

n never regret to have me in her life..

i wish..

my ibu will smile..

n say..dat girl is mydaughter..

n i proud with her..

i wish..

my ibu..can be the happiest women in this world..

n no more sadness in her life..

ommaa..saranghae much3 more^-^

the answer for mysadness...

aku slalu bertanya...n al-quran sudah menjawabnya

kenapa aku diuji?

apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mrk dibiarkan sahaja mengatakan "kami telah beriman,sedangkan mrk tidak diuji?dan sesungguhnya kami telah menguji org2 sebelum mrk, maka sesungguhnya ALLAH mengetahui org2 yg benar dan sesungguhnya DIA mengetahui org2 yg berdusta.

<surah al-ankabut ayt 2-3>

kenapa ujian seberat ini?

ALLAH tidak membebani seseorg itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya....

<surah al-baqarah ayt 286>

kenapa aku tak dapat apa aku idamkn?

boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bersamamu dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia amat buruk bgmu. ALLAH mengetahiu,sedangkn kamu tidak mengetahui.

<surah al-baqarah ayt 216>

kenapa aku rase kecewa?

janganlah kamu bersikap lemah dan janganlah kamu bersedih hati,padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya jika kamu org2 yg beriman.

<surah ali imran ayt 139>

bagaimana harus aku menghadapinya?

dan minta la pertolongan (kpd ALLAH) dgn jalan yg sabardan mengerjakan sembahyang dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amat berat kecuali bg org2 yg khusyuk.

<surah al-baqarah ayt45>

kepada siapa aku berharap?

cukuplah ALLAH bagiku,tiada tuhan selain dari-NYA aku bertawakal

<surah at-taubah ayt 129>

apakah aku akn dpt dr semua ujian ini?

sesungguhnya ALLAH telah membeli drpd org2 mukmin,diri dan harta mrk dgn memberikan syurga untk mrk

<surah at-taubah ayt 111>

aku tidak tahan!!

dan janganlah kamu berputus asa drpd rahmat ALLAH, sesungguhnya tidak ada putus asa drpd rahmat ALLAH melainkan kamu yg kafir

<surah yusuf ayt 17>

sampai bila aku akn merana begini?

kerana sesungguhnya selepas kesulitan itu ada kemudahan. sesungguhnya selepas kesulitan itu ada kemudahan.

<surah al-insyirah ayt 5-6

warisan wanita terakhir

Bila kita dalam salam perpisahan
Namun aku tetap bersamama
Ku rasa bagai satu sentuhan

Dalam mimpi ku terbayang wajahmu

Dalam dirimu penuh kelembutan

Semakin hari namun semakin rindu

Tapak tanganmu akan ku genggam

Akan ku sentuh ketika sayu

Untukmu akan ku semaikan

Cinta yang sejati tiada bandingan

Dalam kerinduan ku sendiri

Dalam kesyahduan kita hadapi

Warisan wanita terakhir

Jiwa raga ku serah

Kau ingin milik segalanya

Di mana kasihmu tiada kau memberi

Apa yang ku perlu hanya kau dapat memberi

Hanya satu yang ku pinta kasih

Kau warisan wanita yang terakhir

Hati sucimu ingin ku miliki

Hanya satu yang ku pinta... Kasih...

Kau warisan wanita yang terakhir

Kau warisan wanita... Yang terakhir...

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like dis song..nani as well..

slalu nyanyi same2 kt dlm blik..hehe

sweet sgt lgu nie..

ehmmm~..

want to be warisan wanita melayu terakhir..

hehehe..

to my mr.right outhere..

whoever r u..

n wherever r u..

i would like to hear u sing dis song to me k..

hahaha

p/s:rindu nk g karok..huhu..

mke2 juara af10..hihi

saya budak bru belajar..

buah cempedak di luar pagar..

amek galah tolong jolokn..

sy bdk bru belajar..

klu salah jgn la marahkn..haha

muke zaman 1st year dulu..nerdnyeww..

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very long day today..
went to class as early at 7.30am..
then went back home at 7.30pm..
12hours in the hospital..tired..exausted..
but very satisfied..
end up myday..by learning sumthing very gud..
learned from the best..!!
u wont know ur mistake..
till u meet people who know exactly where u r wrong..
u wont know where to start..
until the guiders guide u where to begin...
that people is MR JEREMIAH
really admired HIM..
seems like all anatomy books he had swallow..
n all surgical text book he had eat..
he just need to vomitt all those things..
n just show off to u..ur responsible to know everything..
EVERYTHING!!

haa..telan otak tue..bru leh taw sume..huhu

huhu..
really feel like im at the bottom..dunno anything..
really feel ashamed to myself..cause until now..i dunno nothing..
how cn i be a gud doctor like him?
a gud doctor who knows everything..
n all differential diagnosis was listed in his mind..
bah..i really wanna be a gud doctor..
n able to heal all mypatient..in the future..

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so..adila..

u need to work hard..

harder than before..

it doesnt matter if u fall..

falling doesnt mean dat ur weak..

if u dont know..its ok..

try to figure it out..

adila~..GAMBATEH KUNDASAI...!!!

dr. adila wanna be..insyaALLAH^-^